By Eve Joy Hate |
You ripped my heart of everything that could make it beat.
You cut my lungs and strangled my neck up to the point that I do not
know anymore the right way to breathe.
In the end, all you did was kill me when I gave all that I could for you to
I wish I could build you a fountain made up of all the tears I cried for you,
and then I will drown you in it so you will know how suffocating loving
someone like you feels like.
I wish I could take your hopes and dreams that forever exists the way
you mercilessly took away mine and crushed them in front of my face.
I wish that someday you will hate yourself for believing and expecting too
much that the only person you love will never leave you. Yes, I hated
myself for that.
I wish that someday you will be afraid to open your heart because you
are scared of getting hurt again, but not for me, I will love someone
again. After the long days of trying my hardest to feel numb, pretending
that I am used to the pain, swearing that I will never love another,
and acting like I am strong, I have endured living without your
existence. And I will make sure that I will appreciate the love of that next
person, so no one will ever know how it feels like to be unappreciated.
I hope you could see how happy I have been ever since you had
I hope you could feel what I felt when I was hurling with pain when you
made me cry and you were celebrating with gladness when you did.
Now, I hope you could realize how better I have been when I realized how
much I do not need you anymore to be happy.
We all deserve to be happy, and I hope you were
happy when you left me, because I sure am thankful
that you did.